I burn

My life is spinning rapidly out of control. Like an airplane crashing in a jungle, I obliterate everything in my path. I look around and I see the destruction I've caused. It pains me in my heart to see the damage I've done. I only hope that there may be some way to heal and repair what I've done.
I am completely lost. I've forgotten who I am and I did it in such a short time I no longer remember the way out.
What have I done to everyone I ever cared for. I wish to see the world through truer eyes because my perception has become so skewed. My world is warped, bent, twisted. I have hit bottom once again. I don't understand. How many times must I return to this abyss before I learn to keep a steady course.
I'm so sorry. I can't get anything right in my head anymore. I am angry with myself because I feel like I have been so destructive. I thought I had learned to control my emotions better but I was obviously wrong and need to keep learning.
I am broken